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Friday, February 1, 2013

Another January ornament finished up

This is the Sam Hawkins heart Santa.  It's a Christmas gift for a delightful young couple who married earlier this month.

Just the two Christmas teddies to finish up now, and then I can start on my February ornaments.

I'm feeling very sad today, so it's been good to have something to work on to take my mind off my troubles.  My Dad's doctor rang today to tell me that his renal function is now severely impaired.  He is 90 (though he believes that he has turned 100, and there is no dissuading him from this delusion), and has had chronic renal failure and severe heart failure for many years, so it didn't come as a total surprise.  My Dad also has dementia, and has been in an aged care facility for the past 3 years.  His quality of life is not great, and I know he is tired of the struggle to keep going.  His lips are purple all the time, and he is breathless on the slightest exertion, though he still manages to walk short distances.  He is so very weary.  I am his guardian,  and today I signed the papers authorising palliative care only, and no aggressive medical treatment for his renal and cardiac failure. I know this decision is the right one for my Dad, and I have the support of my five siblings and assorted adult nieces, nephews and cousins, and my Dad's doctor.  But that doesn't make me feel any better about making it, and signing those papers.  Sometimes logic just doesn't help. So I've had no sleep at all, and my mind is running wild.  I hope it settles down soon.

4 comments:

wilma boer said...

Oh my goodness, Lynne...I'm so sorry. It's difficult to make decisions like that. Rest in knowing you did what you could.
Hang in there...sending you cyber hugs!

Beth Pearce said...

While that is a truly tough decision, I know if your Dad could understand, he would thank you.

I love your ornament and what a perfect one for newlyweds!

Take heart....

Anne said...

So sorry to hear that you have that decision. I just completed my personal directive and it outlines all of my wishes before I ever become too ill to be able to tell. It is not an easy choice for family, unless it's already written down. If you wish to email me we could talk further. Big Hug to You!! :)

Elfie said...

Thank you for your kind comments and thoughts. I think Dad does understand on some level - today he seems quite at peace and happy to drift in and out of sleep.